Monday, December 27, 2010
How original
I hate this lonely feeling I get soo much. I just want someone to talk to, dammit. I once came to point in my life where I though I had friends I could hang out with at a regular basis. I thought I'd never get this lonely feeling ever again. I guess I screwed it up cause they don't talk to me anymore. I guess I'm just meant to suffer being alone. My old friends hardly ever have time for me. I have a boyfriend but I need more than just him to have a normal social life.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Humbug
I guess to kick things off here I can start out talking about the "holiday" season of which we are currently immersed in.
I honestly can't say its my favorite time of year. The long nights and bleak weather always has a negative affect on me for one. Then there's my family; having to be stuck in the same house together is never a good idea. We all find a way to get on each others nerves. I sarcastically call it our family tradition. Then there's the presents; getting them for my friends or boyfriend is easy; I know them and know what they like so finding them a gift with meaning is not a problem. This brings the problem of my family again. Unless they specifically tell me what they want (which kind of defeats the purpose) I have no idea what to get them and rely on getting the kinds of gifts one usually reserves for people they hardly know (gift card city). Then there's my son, who changes what he wants every day after seeing the latest piece of plastic being marketed to kids on TV. He has soo much stuff already that I end up not getting him that much knowing he'll get tons of crap from my parents and other relatives. More pieces of plastic waiting to get broken for me to step on barefoot. :(
I would enjoy this time of year if I lived away from my family so I could celebrate it in my own way; without the tension and stress and all of the "stuff".
I honestly can't say its my favorite time of year. The long nights and bleak weather always has a negative affect on me for one. Then there's my family; having to be stuck in the same house together is never a good idea. We all find a way to get on each others nerves. I sarcastically call it our family tradition. Then there's the presents; getting them for my friends or boyfriend is easy; I know them and know what they like so finding them a gift with meaning is not a problem. This brings the problem of my family again. Unless they specifically tell me what they want (which kind of defeats the purpose) I have no idea what to get them and rely on getting the kinds of gifts one usually reserves for people they hardly know (gift card city). Then there's my son, who changes what he wants every day after seeing the latest piece of plastic being marketed to kids on TV. He has soo much stuff already that I end up not getting him that much knowing he'll get tons of crap from my parents and other relatives. More pieces of plastic waiting to get broken for me to step on barefoot. :(
I would enjoy this time of year if I lived away from my family so I could celebrate it in my own way; without the tension and stress and all of the "stuff".
Post Nuero Ichi
Another attempt to start up and maintain a blog :P
I've tried to keep one here and there. Myspace, Livejournal, but none that I ever maintained successfully (hence the name of this one) I've got so much on my mind, so I'm hoping this blog can be the "trash can" of my mind. Here's hoping.
I've tried to keep one here and there. Myspace, Livejournal, but none that I ever maintained successfully (hence the name of this one) I've got so much on my mind, so I'm hoping this blog can be the "trash can" of my mind. Here's hoping.
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